I don’t relate to this season of life, but I love this song. It sits in that space of emotional comedowns after brief happiness, of jealousy and unresolved feelings, of growing up and slowly losing touch.
There’s that tender undercurrent of realizing you didn’t nurture something the way you could have — and recognizing your own role in the distance.
The lyrics feel poetic — not just rhyme-y rhyme-y for the sake of rhyme, but honest and lived-in. It’s pure storytelling, and the whole vibe feels hopeful.
I’ve always been drawn to indie music — it’s one of my favorite genres — and Pinegrove fits right into that space for me.
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LYRICS
Walking outside labyrinthineOver cracks along under the treesI know this town grounded in a compassCardinal landed in the dogwoodI keep going over it, over and overMy steps iterate my shameHow come every outcome is such a comedown?Lately afternoon with the shades drawn downI kept saying I just wanted to see itSaying, “What’s wrong with that?”Needle shaking out lines in the compassEvery outcome is such a comedownI knew it when I saw itSo I did just what I wantedSo I go through with thisI knew happiness when I saw itI saw your boyfriend at the port authorityIt’s a sort of fucked up placeWell, so I averted my stride on a quick oneHe’s coming back from going over to your place, huh?I feel like I could forget about itI feel like I can mellow outI don’t feel undone in a big wayThere’s nothing really bad to be upset aboutBut when I thought I was getting betterI woke up on the groundAn appointment, oh disappointmentA set back, oh another comedownAs if I needed a reminderI do only what I wannaSo I go through with thisWalking out in the night—time springtimeNeedling my way homeI saw Leah on the bus a few months agoI saw some old friends at her funeralMy steps keep splitting my griefThrough these solipsistic moodsI should call my parents when I think of themShould tell my friends when I love themMaybe I should have gone out a bit moreAnd you guys are still in townI got too caught up in my own shitIt’s how every outcome is such a comedownI knew it when I saw itOh, I did just what I wantedSo I go through with thisI knew happiness when I saw itI saw it
Source: LyricFind